bad medicine

I'm tasting my own medicine these days and it's wonderfully sobering! Being flirted with and still held at an arm's length.. [smile] I guess I've never tried being played before 'cos I've always done all the 'playing'. ....ever read "Forføreren" ("The Seducer") by Søren Kierkegaard?! I guess it's summed up in one sentence (somewhat): thrill of the chase. It's The Game and I've been an egocentric Lord in It for a long time now.

Here's to life!

re-targeting

This innate, continuing striving for Perfection, is it instinct? Why is it in me? Is it a product of my convictions? -my subconscious, perhaps.. Is it God-given?

Whatever the verdict it's there and and the graphics are so good, the edge of the e is razor sharp. I want, I want, I want.. what is it really that I want? I want to be a successful person, son, brother, friend, student and boy-friend.. How? Look at other people. Live for God, and live for them and then tend to yourself. It's basic, it's logical, but it's what makes a real man.

"Live your life so that others succeed."

how can I live without you?

I wish I was in love. I'm not. I doubt I ever will be again.. -can't imagine it!

Still.. I don't wanna be in love! I almost let someone have a go at persuading me but as aforementioned: I don't think I'll ever fall in love again! I don't trust 'being in love.' It's never resulted in anything good so I don't trust it.

I don't wanna be in love again. I don't want anyone to persuade me.. but please do!